It’s that dreaded word that everyone feels like they have to whisper.  Those feelings that no one is supposed have!  I am a blessed mom.  I have a houseful of precious babies whom I love.  I have a godly husband.  Most of all, I have the Lord Jesus Christ!  How can I be in this depression that I can’t pull myself out of?

For years it was a stigma for me.  If someone was feeling an intense darkness within they just needed to get closer to God.  They needed to pray more, read scripture more, gain more gratitude.

And then it happened.  I fell into a spiral of dejection. And no matter how I cried, prayed and read..I was scared.  What was happening to me?  I couldn’t remember what joy felt like?  Happiness?  Feelings of wellbeing inside?  I had every reason to have that, but it was like grasping at a cloud…it wasn’t there!  I was in a tunnel of loneliness and despair.  I was a failure in my own eyes and could not rise up from the swirling feelings of unrest.

Many years later, I still struggle at times.  But, God has been so good and faithful to give me supportive family, a faithful pastor who has shown me that this problem is a very physical thing.  Why do we not have a problem saying that our arm is broken and needs rest, but our brain cannot break?  Our bodies are so complex as women.  Bearing precious babies, nursing our little ones brings so many changes within!  Sometimes we need to make sure our bodies are nourished with the proper vitamins, minerals, and yes sometimes prescriptions.  So, we can be there for our families.

So, along with dialog and discussion on this blog,  I would like to offer some of you dear moms out there… who feel so alone, some hope.  You are not alone.  You do love your family, you are the perfect mom that God gave to your children…and there is hope.  Further than that, I give you permission to rest.

Here are a few resources that will get you started…

David Murray is a wonderful doctor of the heart and speaks much on this subject.  Check out some of his books!

David Murray also has done some videoes on the internet that will be of great help.

There is also a wonderful book out there called Broken Minds

Dear struggling mother..if I could reach out and hug you I would. Please get ahold of these books, read them and let your loved ones read them. The Lord lifts up the broken hearted and He is there for you.

I have written more about the deep dark hole that so many of us have had experience with throughout the pages of this blog. So I hope you will search and find more encouragement, dear friend!

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