I drove home just myself and my youngest babe. Weariness coursing through my body, but an inward mental fatigue that superceded the physical. I just needed quiet.
I never used to need quiet. As a social flutterbug, I always loved to be in a crowd. I love fellowship and to be with God’s people. And I still do. But, the Lord has taken me down some shadows and valleys of weakness and darkness that has left my brain weak. My mind handicapped. And now instead of a constant recharge through activity, I covet quiet and need to reset through stillness sometimes.
It is not often that I can hear the ticking of the clocks in my home. Lively laughter and cheerful youth fills the room most days. But, once in awhile I have to sit and hear them. The seconds ticking by, reminding me that time is hastening on and it is the eternal realities that matter most. And I am refreshed through being still.
As busy wives and mothers our bodies get physically very tired, our minds get cluttered and confused, our souls languish and feel dry.
Do you ever feel so tired you can hardly lift up your head? The kind of fatigue that you feel in the depths of your bones? Does your soul ever feel this way. Inwardly you groan and are weary? You don’t even know how to formulate the words, but you are so weary. And you need a Savior.
And that is when the Lord calls us to come away. Come away from the din and noise. Come away and just listen. Just be still. Be Still and know that HE is God.
That term to be still indicates a sinking:
1d1) to let drop, abandon, relax, refrain, forsake
1d2) to let go
1d3) to refrain, let alone
1d4) to be quiet
1e) (Hithpael) to show oneself slack
I am commanded to cease striving...
to give up...
to let go...
to be quiet...
to roll all my heavy burdens and cares upon Him.
I am commanded to sink down...down, down, down...
and let Jesus carry me. I am commanded to know,
to be assured of, to trust and rest...
to sink down into the fact...that HE IS GOD.